I’m about to make this huge decision and all I can think about is all the things I wont be able to have and if I’m going to be good enough. I saw what being in a military marriage did to my parents, and I know I’m never going to do that to another person so I guess I can cross marriage or a relationship in general off my to do list. It was never really high up there anyway so it’s not too much of a loss, but I guess I liked the idea of just having the option of it. I just cant see myself putting someone through that. I don’t want to get into something now that I’m just going to have to end when I leave and I absolutely refuse to make someone sit around waiting for me. I guess what I’ve really been thinking about is if I’m good enough or strong enough. I’ve just got so much on my mind it’s hard to sort through this all but I feel like I’m ready to take that dive.